Thursday, May 12, 2011

Jehovah Jireh

I don't post much any more about my health. I still live with deep-rooted issues that no one can figure out. I've worked with 9 different practitioners, both conventional and natural, and there are very few answers. I get up 3-8 times a night to go to the bathroom. I have to take meds and supplements; I struggle with hormone imbalance and chronic fatigue. I go through phases of wanting desperately to find answers and/or have the Lord fully heal. At the same time, I am surrendered to His perfect will and timeline.

17 months ago I was at a place of great suffering with my health. It was then that I was going to start my job at the church. I didn't have a clue how I was going to be able to do this job but I knew God had told me to take it.

He clearly said, "Trust Me." And then I believe He told me what I needed to do for that sustenance.

I have experienced sustaining from the Lord throughout these 17 months. I have not missed one day of work because of my ongoing health issues. My root issues are not gone; I suffer from flares and have ups and downs in my health on a regular basis. However, He sustains. He is faithful and trustworthy.

I have continued to pray for His help with my physical issues. I have recently been asking for specific things. And He provides.

Just this week I was thrown a curve ball when I unexpectedly had to "lose" my entire Monday off. I ended up taking The Prairie Kid to school and spending most of the day at work. I thought, "Oh no! This is not good! I will crash by Thursday." My days of rest have been vital for me to get through the long, demanding duties of both my job and my role as a mom and wife. My schedule is a roller coaster, one day I run hard and the next I take time to rest. Up and down, up and down. And when I have to give up the rest it is really hard and sometimes I feel like I hit bottom.

I figured that would be the case this week. I prayed about it and asked the Lord to provide the energy, sustenance and balance I needed so that I wouldn't crash hard.

It is Thursday. I haven't crashed. : ) I am experiencing Jehovah Jireh, "The Lord will provide" in a very tangible way this week.

Thank You, Father. Thank You.

1 comment:

Beck Gambill said...

I'm so glad to hear God's provision in your life. It's always just enough isn't it!